Attention is not what I seek,
I just want you to see the wrong.
My attempts have left me frail and weak.
You ignored my ailment too long.

I don't want to be normal,
I want to disappear from view.
I need to be dysfunctional.
I can't be seen by you.

Are you actually noticing my rotten core,
or do you overlook my life?
Does my body need to suffer more
for you to see through this lie?

I don't want to be normal,
I want to disappear from view.
I need to be dysfunctional.
I can't be seen by you.

Have I carved the message deep enough
for you to finally see your fear?
Do my crimson clots oppose your love?
Will you run, and not stay near?

I smile and feel so deeply ashamed,
for then i feel almost human.
I know you must think I'm completely deranged,
because I refuse to play and be fun.

I can't let go of the pain,
It fuels my life.
I need my soul empty,
I want permanent night.

That feeling is such a comfort to me,
because it is so sadly reliable.
It caresses my heart so gently,
and trips me so I'm unstable.

I can't let go of the pain,
It fuels my life.
I need my soul empty,
I want permanent night.

It hounds me always and lulls me to sleep,
no matter what path I may choose.
It's created a world so unbearably bleak,
in which i solemnly take refuge.

Consuming the world,
it rests in me.
Never moving from it's place.
Pinned down forever inside of me,
i can't look myself in the face.

It's not alright,
I've had to pay.
It's not alright,
I'm a mess today.

Consuming the world,
I weigh it down.
Want to fly like the birds,
but I'm stuck on the ground.
I flush out all that encumbers me,
My violent goal, I've found.

It's okay,
I've made it right.
It's okay
I can sleep tonight.